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new journal! :0 [06 Feb 2007|09:45pm]
plz add my new journal at snox. loloolol

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[14 Nov 2006|11:01am]
[ mood | okay ]

Its been that week/weeks where I have a dream just about every night.. usually I have dreams that I can remember, or really make me think.. But this week they've been dreams that are.. well, unrelated and strange in a simple sort of way.  And they're FULL of people that I don't even know.  Which, really bothers me for some reason.  

Last night I was trying to make love with someone that I had NO clue who he was, and we were like.. lions or something. XD  And the night before I was in a car with someone I didn't know and we were driving through these obstical  things.. and the night before that I was with two girls in some theme park trying to avoid a giant monster so we could get out of the park.  That dream was rather scary because I think we were underground trying to avoid being killed or something.  o_O K, so most of these dreams are a lot more detailed than what I said, but thats the basic idea of them.. And in most of the dreams a group of people usually showed up and of couse, I had no idea who they were.  I think I had two dreams tonight, coz mom woke me up early and I fell back asleep, and FINALLY this dream had Brittany in it.. and I think the other person was Cassie, I'm not really sure.. it was just a girl that I knew.  But besides those dreams I can't remember what I dreamt the week before.

Other than that, I dun really have something to update about. xD -shrugs- I felt like doing something other than my school work like I should be.

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[19 Oct 2006|12:01pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Quizees when I SHOULD be working...Collapse )

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[18 Oct 2006|10:10pm]
[ mood | anxious ]


Moral of that post: ROCK LOBSTAH! WHOOEEE :D

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[15 Oct 2006|07:30pm]
[ mood | blah ]

This weekend Brevard residents were allowed to get into the KSC Visitor complex for free.  Of course, we HAD to go.. well, mom didn't want to go, Leslie did.  ... I've been going out there since I was young.  So it was like... really boring. XD Except for the new imax movie about the moon landing.

There was this model of the walkway the astrounauts walk on to get onto the shuttle, and I stared at it, and started walking down it really slowly, and I waved at everyone outside of it.. then at the end there was the entrance and I walked through it and walked out slow and did some kind of shocked face and waved at everyone again. XD People were stareing at me.. and mom said one guy was laughing at me.. I guess he was the only one who got what I was doing.

Ah the joys of making fun of cheesy movies.

Other than that, the movie, making stupid comments, brooding around with an angry look on my face, and eating the best fucking ice cream ever ( DIPPIN DOTS FTW ) it was verryyyy boring.  Well to me and mom atleast.

But what is good is that I heard that they're having an Openhouse again out where thy mother works.  They haven't had one out there since 9/11, so I'm happy, because those are actually fun.. Especially seeing moms cubical and running around in her office, eating food out of their fridge and drawing all over their whiteboard. XD  Its in November so I'm happy. 

Lawl, Homecoming is tonight, dunno when it starts, don't care.. Not going.. One of my friends wanted me to go with her and a few other people but I didn't really think about it, so I ran out of time.  Ah well.. If I were going, I would so wear a suit. XD DON'T QUESTION MY REASONS.

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[14 Oct 2006|06:48pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Today went well.  Mom was invited to another party but decided not to go and we drove out to Cocoa beach for a late lunch.  At first I was in a pretty sour mood but I felt a bit better when we went out to the beach around 4 pm.  I took my shoes off and walked in the water. It was beautiful out today, it was nice and cool, and the sand was warm but not seering hot.  We walked along the beach a pretty long ways.  My most favorite thing about the beach is when the tide finishes and the foam fades off, its like everything around you gets quiet for that moment. Its faaannntastic. <3

....Then on the way back.. mom played the 'My Sitar' song like.. twice.. I should have never let her listen to it.. she loves it. XD

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[06 Oct 2006|05:12pm]
[ mood | devious ]

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another update to spam your friends page [06 Oct 2006|03:54pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I took a shower today, and I look down and THIS RED WATER WAS ALL IN THE BOTTOM AND I WAS ALL 'OMFGO WHERE THE HELL AM I BLEEDING' then I remembered that .. I dyed my hair red.. XD then I was all 'c: hee I'm batheing in blood' coz the red water WAS ALL OVER ME. XD

Then, since moms been staying home, we went to walmart so she could get a babyshower gift... ahaha, we went into the toy isle and I saw those tomagotchis or whatever how you spell them and I was all 'MY GOD I NEED THAT' I LOVED those when I was little, and I had a huge keychain of them. XD but mom said no. >: so I screamed 'I'M GOING TO THROW MYSELF ON THE GROUND AND CRY' but instead I whined REALLY loud, going 'IWANTONEIWANTONEEEEEE WAAAHHHH PLLZZZZ MOMMMMYYYYY' .... :D EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT ME.. Of course, I was kidding whineing, but it was fun none the less. ^^ and when we got in the parking lot I did this weird whiney flail thing. XD good times, good times.

....This song is still pwn.

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I TOTALLY STOLE THIS [06 Oct 2006|01:45am]
[ mood | okay ]

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now. I don't watch much TV these days. I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. I love to play video games. × I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (Most of the time I'm honest, sometimes I'm not.)
I curse sometimes.  (Sometimes?!) I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
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[05 Oct 2006|10:22pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]


AND omfgo this song is fucking great and I don't know why.


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[05 Oct 2006|06:17pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

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[05 Oct 2006|03:50pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

I SLEPT LAST NIGHT!!11one!!eleven... no.. ... I PASSED out. xD

Oh god, Luna is in heat. x___x soo annoying.

I remember waking up this morning and thinking about how I forget a lot of people.. I feel bad for it, I mean, when I went to Toni's party someone was all ':D WAT, NO HUG FOR ME?!' I was all '.... Who ARE you?' and when I went to Publix a while back someone was all 'NATALIE OMG HI.. Remember me?' and I was all ':D LAWL NOPE -runs off-' And, I truely do feel bad for forgetting, but I can't help it. I wish I wasn't forgetfull, but I can't even remember what happend yesterday. Unless I REALLY want to remember, I try and think about it constantly.

...I suppose its a bad idea to tell people that I forget what happens the day before.. I'll wake up tied to a bed, naked. ;___; mmmm bondage.... Mmm whipped cream... o_O I'M NOT THINKING BAD THINGS. >:D

but, thats why I still continue to use LJ, so I can remember things... that and to rant.

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Sleepless [04 Oct 2006|12:36pm]
[ mood | drained ]

I stayed up until 2 last night watching Loveless on Youtube, I only got to episode 10 before I decided to take off to my room. But, I didn't sleep last night. I didn't feel the least tired. And around 5 AM I drew this.. horrid picture with only colored pencils. XD I'll probably post it here later. When I actually started to feel the fatigue was about 10-11 AM, but I didn't want to sleep, so I endured through it. So I watched the rest of Loveless.. hm, I should really read the mangas more, I prefer mangas, I never get out to buy them though. >: -rly needs job-

oh man, am I getting dizzy, I guess fatigue is coming in again.. It was only one night of no sleep. I don't want to sleep.. whenever it becomes night I seem to get depressed, I don't know why.. I mean, daylight gives me a headache but night makes me sad.

erk.. -eye twitch-

...dude this song pwns.

Edit: Oh man, our power got turned off for like, a couple hours. o_O it sucked, but I just sat on the couch and listened to music, and kinda fell asleep every now and then. xDD Then Leslie comes back with a frostie for me and I'm like 'FUCKING SWEET A FROSTIE' I love them so.. but they do hurt my tummy very bad. D:

Edit #2: K so, my exciteing day... For some reason after a fatigue session I got really hyper and I ran around being stupid, saying random shit, and then I couldn't say Cinderella, I tried like five times then I slid onto the ground and whined. Mom looked at our dog and said 'Shes been snortin' and I was all 'LAWL YEAH' the dog gave me a dirty look. now I'm so worn out I can barely stand up for some reason. yar. GOD THIS SONG IS SO ADDICTIVE

Edit #3!:

WOO GIANT MOUNTAIN DEW TO ... keep me awake again o___o

AND FINALLY, I PROMISE THE LAST EDIT #4:  I started to wonder what I was going to do for Halloween this year.. I'm haveing my doubts on the party, because our house is a little to small for that party, because that usually involved everyone running around being idiots, and being.. loud. The people I associate with are... loud. XD  I thought maybe we could have it at a park or something, yanno, reserve a spot for the night.. but it would be to much work moving all the stuff there. mmmmmrrr.. I dunnoooo... Mommeh says I'm to old for trick o' treatin... I could still do the tricks. >D wahahaha, chase children around... I'd probably worry the parents if I did it in a Willy Wonka costume, I SO WANT TO BE THAT SEXY MAN FOR HALLOWEEN. XD eh, still debateing in my mind who to be.  ahaha, toilet paper peoples houses.. god that would pwn coz there are a lot of expensive homes in this neighborhood.  but, I'm not that inconsiderate.. or mean.. but damn would it be fun. 

Since I'm homeschooled I could probably do things that I couldn't do when I was in regular school.. obviously, dur. 

Ehhhh now I'm wide awake.

I LIED, AHHAHA EDIT #5!: I made my info page thing all pretty. :D

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[03 Oct 2006|07:12pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

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[01 Oct 2006|11:44pm]
[ mood | drained ]

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lawl [01 Oct 2006|04:42pm]
[ mood | okay ]

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[01 Oct 2006|10:41am]
[ mood | crushed ]


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I'm being an update whore. [30 Sep 2006|12:55am]
[ mood | crappy ]

Nahtuhlee says:

everytime I hear 'I feel pretty' I think of a man.. in a flowery dress

«=‡[∞"Ï...ÂM."∞]‡=» "I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S GOING ON 8D ...No. Really. SOMEBODY HELP ME D=" says:


Nahtuhlee says:

Damn those fanfics

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and damn those videos

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theres a blue haired man dancing around in a pink dress with red flowers around in my mind

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slhdad [29 Sep 2006|10:00pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Well, I'm not feeling any better.  And now I feel even worse for feeling bad, when I have no right to.

I had to stop by Peter's today to get my DS and a few things back from him.  It made me a little nervous seeing him, and I felt kind of bad when he hugged me and told me that he was going to miss me.. I honestly didn't know how to reply to that, I just told him that I was sorry.  We kissed one last time.  Then we headed off to the old house to feed the cats, and 'Hold me now' started playing on the radio.. The original version of it, and I started singing it badly, and nearly cried, even though I was laughing.. I hate that.

We headed off to wal-mart to get material for my toga and food and stuff.   When we were in the food area there was this little boy looking at me, and whispering to his mom, and he kept looking at me, and his mom just grinned at me, and I smiled nervously back.. He was probably commenting on my hair... it does look a little wonky.  Then, when we went to check out, I saw that there were Icee's in the front of the store and I was all 'iwantoneiwantoneiwantone' soz, mom let me get one.. and there were like, three little boys in line, and they looked at me. D: WTF, I felt proud in my self in my own little way because I was the only teenager there waiting in line for an Icee. XD

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[29 Sep 2006|02:40pm]
[ mood | blah ]


No... this does not mean my mood is better.

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